SHOPPING.....phew......

All these years many questions bothered me...some got answered...but remained palpably unanswered. They still hang about in me. They specially irk me when I cannot escape it. The most irritating is WHY THE HELL PEOPLE LURVE SHOPPING!?!?!?!?!?
For me it is the most unconstructive way to spend time, energy and money. Seriously why do people keep on shopping especially for clothes when they have enough of them?? Also the major disadvantage for me is that my very own sister just cannot help but shop shop and shop. Shopping for necessary things is legitimate. But unnecessary things like excess of clothes which many a time are transferred from rack in the shop to the wardrobe of some absolutely immature girl. They are often not even worn. It is like an incurable disease!! The sad part is that this undefined virus is not only among girls or women but it is gripping most of the people including men and children equivalently. Till the time it is confined to that particular person it is fine but why compel others??
This is one of the reason because of which going to college doesn’t excite me. Going to college is one of the BIG reasons for shopping. The week before college commences is one week which I dread the most.
Even in “Confessions of a shopaholic” the protagonist realizes that excessive shopping isn’t good for your health and bank balance.

Stupidity...

There is this simple question irritating me since two three days...so thought sharing it would be the best option to stop speculating over it and fissure my brains. The thing is since college started I feel that we are thought things which we already know nothing new is being done and the Profs Keep on saying ‘commerce’ students keep your mouth shut….more than a privilege it feels as if we have done some sin…like some in bolly style “pichle janam ke paap” you know….its freaking!!!!!
Well since we cannot change the professors….sigh….we need to accept their attitude. There is also another question why do people booze??? Actually speaking I really don’t mind and I am not one of those “Stop Drinking” sign boards it’s just a general question because frankly speaking logic says you shouldn’t drink not because it is ethically wrong or something but once you are “intoxicated” in the words of my very good friend megha, you lose control and start doing stupid things usually involving the opposite sex…well if you seriously want to do the stupid things do I think you should do them when you are conscious at least you will know what brainless stuff I being done…..huh….moreover beer which people drink like a dog doesnt even taste good...and if u want a high with your senses in place just go for lemon shots!!!;);)

Finally....

today when i sat down to write i was extremely happy and confident after a very long time. i used to be always undecisive and unhappy about anything and everything. people may call it a sort of depression but for me it was the weakest point of my 17 yrs of life. i had lost hope of ever succeding, had started beliving that i wasnt worth any thing, i didnt deserve anything from anyone, everyone it seemed had deserted me. i couldnt even muster enough courage to write my blogg!!
all this was happening due to my one dim witted step of trusting the most wrong person in my life. even after being warned several times by my conscience i myself went into that pothole.
after which series of unwanted dramas and fateful events followed. for which i deeply regret.
today i have taken a step towards sunshine...i have allowed the brightness of the sun to dissolve in me, the smell of the flower surround me, the pureness of nature to relive through me.....
i can now finally fall into deep slumber without any apprehensive thoughts. so without construing the future now i have finally decided to live life the way it leads me with all smiles.....

Random Thoughts

I am a stranger to myself, and when i hear my tongue speak,my ears wonder over my voice; I see my inner self smiling, crying, braving, fighting, and fearing; and my existence wonders over my substance while my soul interrogates my heart; but I remain unknown, engulfed by tremendous silence.....